You've got wits, you've got looks, you've got passion...

I'm really angry at myself: first because I can't let things go and second because I regret something in my life.

Why can't I just FORGET. I beat myself up minute after minute, hour after hour, day after day, to no avail. I'm dying inside but I can't talk about it because I'm so tied up in my suffering (and that's a lame word but for the purpose of delving into my feelings I'll use it). I just CANNOT stop thinking about it.

I shouldn't regret anything in my life, it's something I've always striven to accomplish. And look, now I'm twenty years old (basically in the prime of my life) and I'm regretting something SO FOOLISH. I just need to let it go but once again, I cannot seem to do that.

This is so ridiculous that I cannot even do work I'm so focused on my shortcomings. I don't want to go home but I definitely need to. I can't be here anymore thinking. I just need to get out there and live my life by myself and not think of anyone else.

Too bad that's just too ridiculous for me to consider right now.

Why can't things work out the way I want for one time in my life?

I slightly feel like crying but that seems too childish. Maybe I have too many wishes to fulfill.

My goal in life is to find something I like about every time of day.

I watched a movie in my Practice of Criticism class and Nicole Kidman, in a very well done interpretation of Virginia Woolf, states, "You cannot find peace by avoiding life." In Virginia Woolf's suicide note to her husband, she writes:

"To look life in the face, always, to look life in the face and to know it for what it is. At last to know it, to love it for what it is, and then, to put it away. Always the years between us, always the years. Always the love. Always the hours."

I can't believe I'm moved by someone's suicide note. Then again, isn't that what the writer is looking for? To leave one thing that will let those whom they love know truly what they felt about them. In those few sentences, Virginia Woolf manages to explain why she cannot live, yet she praises the hours she and her husband spent together, and tells him how she will cherish them.

Is it foolish to say that she knew what life was? Perhaps she did. She knew what life was and knew she didn't need it. So she took it away from herself. To know life, to love it, and then to put it away. How astounding that someone can know that about the world.

What is it to live? How would one know that they have achieved life? Isn't it a generalized truth that life could always get better? Am I too optimistic? Or does life come, and in Virginia Woolf's case, have the ability to be put away. Life should be lived to the fullest, but I wonder, for how long?

This is entirely too deep for a sunny Friday but I feel the need to work through my thoughts. I hope Virginia Woolf is proud of the effect she had on me.

The Sabres lost last night to Montreal which means, yes, after Saturday night's regular season game, they will not be playing again until October. This is in fact the first time in the past four years that I haven't been able to watch my Sabres play for AT LEAST two more months after the regular season. Feel sorry for me, because I'm depressed. There, I acknowledged it, so now I'm not going to talk about the Sabres for the next 3-5 months in order to recover successfully, then I'm back and kicking for the 2008-2009 season which will end with the Sabres winning the Stanley Cup.

Alright. In other news, Amanda went home yesterday so I am HAPPY! Recovery is always better when at home and while I miss her already, I'll be able to visit and she'll come back to the Rochester area as well.

This Monday is the first of five games for Intramural Softball and I'm half excited, half FREAKING OUT. I love softball, don't get me wrong, I played for nearly 10 years, but I haven't played since senior year in high school. That's TWO YEARS. What if I can't hit the ball? I haven't slid in forever, either. I don't even know if I'm allowed to lead off in intramural softball. There are so many things going through my head just thinking about it. It's coed but the guys have all played throughout high school (and some in college!) so I feel sufficiently creeped out that I won't be able to even hit the ball. GOD. I should not be like this. I should be confident in my own ability haha. We'll see how that goes.

I should really be researching for my Capstone paper right now (Walt Whitman: A Psychological Analysis) so I better head off.

Until later,
K

So I haven't posted in FO-E-VA. That was a throwback to the Sandlot. It's been a busy few weeks but I think things are calming down. For example, both of my classes were canceled today and what makes it even better is that I knew that around 8:00 last night. So I had a nice restful sleep, got up at 8:00 instead of 6:30, and I have about three hours to prepare for my group meeting. Woo.

I've been freaking out slightly about the Sabres. First of all, we only have FIVE regular season games left. Second of all, we're SIX POINTS away from eighth place. Okay, now the pessimists out there would claim that these are the last five Sabres games I'll be watching until October but I say SHUUUUUUUN. SHUUUUUNNN THE NON-BELIEVERS!!! I still believe it's possible and we will do it. How different this season is from last (i.e. check to my posts circa mid-late April last year... All you'll read is joyous exultations).

Well, I should get started on my group presentation because I plan on doing a few things for the FIFTEEN PAGE PAPER I have due later this semester. Yeah, its obnoxious.

Until later,
K

Thank God, I am finally home. It's hard to be away from Geneseo and away from Amanda especially but she's recovering wonderfully so I'm coping as well as I can. It's just really nice to be able to relax.

For example, all I really did today was download music, watch movies, FAMILY DINNER and then the Sabres game. It was perfectly lazy and I loved it. Although I still have a ton of homework to do which I thought I might do today.

Tomorrow is church, family lunch (with the extended fam) and then I'm going to see the musical with Mary. I think it's Kiss Me Kate and I really have no idea what that's about so it'll be fun haha. Sometimes I think I like movies/plays/shows better when I am completely unaware of the plot. Maybe I'm just kidding myself.

I'm incredibly tired but I felt the need to update so here it is. Hopefully I'll have time to update throughout the week. It's going to be a pretty busy one :P

Until later,
K

The weather, once again, is kind of nice and it feels balmy practically because it's so warm. Yet, we have a winter storm warning for this WHOLE weekend. How is that possible. Weather, can you stop being annoying and just become Spring already? God. It's March 7th. Take a hint.

Given my good mood earlier this week, my mood now is frighteningly 180*. Not only did I break down nearly eight times on Wednesday (and when I say break down, I mean sobbing uncontrollably), I can find a million little things that continue to bother me now about people all around me. I'm trying not to be this way and I know Spring Break will help (so please come quickly!) so hopefully I'll stop being so unstable and start to become normal again.

Tonight, though, I'm having a good time. I'm letting all my cares just fly away and I'm enjoying myself. We'll see how that goes.

Until later,
K

Crazy, crazy, crazy, crazy, CRAZY three weeks. It's been obnoxiously crazy. Those of you close to me know what's up, and I'm not going to rehash everything here, but I think I'm finally in the clear (CONTINUOUS KNOCKING ON WOOD THROUGHOUT THIS WHOLE POST).

I must say, I am extremely surprised how well I have been able to handle everything, but I never could've done it without my friends (here and at home!) so thank you all so much - I owe you way more than I could ever owe myself. And my mama. She's been my rock through this whole thing. I especially enjoyed her card ("If you ever need a break from 'Hanging In There,' I'll catch ya.") which made me practically burst into tears in the Union mail room.

And I could not help but post on this beautiful day. Last year I was obsessed with the weather/the coming of spring and it seems that this year it has caught me by surprise. Talk about 68* on March 3rd surprise. Now, I realize that for tomorrow we have a winter storm warning, it's just AMAZINGLY beautiful out, the sun was shining all day, the breeze has been blowing the curtains, and I have been playing Jason Mraz nonstop which means on thing - Spring. I welcome you, even though you'll be the most illusive thing in my life for the next month or so... Give or take a few weeks haha.

Until later,
K

I have just realized that I am alone. I have no one who is looking out for me. No one recognizes me as someone who, if they need it, is worthy of dashing other plans just to be with.

I've also realized that I need someone. At this moment, I need that one person to say, "Yes, I had something to do today, but I'm not going to because you need me and I'll be there for you."

I don't know what is more stressing - The fact that I've only just realized this and I'm 20 years old or the fact that not one of my family members or friends is available for me at this moment.

K.

Isn't it funny how the lyrics to one song can change meanings so quickly? It's so odd that I could love one song for making me feel so much better yet come to realize that it's telling me the exact opposite... And I've been too blind to see? No. I just look optimistically at everything and for the second time in the past 12 hours, I've been... Sideswiped? Taken by surprise? Whatever.

Even though you have doubts, you never want to believe that they're true. And when you find out that they are, it's impossible to not judge yourself and say, "Why didn't I see this coming? Was I that blind?" But that's not really fair. You saw your doubts. You just chose to focus on the positives and (perhaps in my case) take everything and make it bigger, something more than it really was.

So who's to blame? Me? No. Him? No. Love? College? Life in general? Unfortunately I don't have the answer and if I did, I'd be in better shape than I am now. I'm not saying that I'm broken down because I'm fine, but I'm not resilient enough to be completely unfeeling. Give me a few days and I'll be okay. You can't just stop doing something because another person feels differently. In a few days, I'll be more understanding and... Happy.

Anyway, it's not possible to have a relationship based solely on electronics. Too bad I didn't realize that months ago. NOTE TO SELF: You live, you learn.


Until later,
Katie



All your life you've waited
For love to come and stay
And now that I have found you
I must not slip away
I know its hard believing
The words you heard before
Darling you must trust them please
Trust them just once more

Cause baby goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye
Doesn't mean we'll never be together again
If you wake up and I'm not there
I wont be long away oh
And all the things you do my goodbye girl
Will bring me back to you

I know you've been taken
Afraid to hurt again
You fight the love you feel for me
Instead of giving in
I can wait forever oh
Helping you to see
That I was meant for you my love
And you were meant for me

Remember goodbye doesn't mean forever
Let me tell you goodbye
Doesn't mean we'll never be together again
Though we may be so far apart
You still have my heart
So forget your past my goodbye girl
Now your home at last.... at last

Though we maybe so far apart
You still have my heart
So forget your past my goodbye girl
Now your home at last oh
It doesn't mean forever
Goodbye doesn't mean we'll never be together

All my innocence is wasted on the dead and dreaming...

Excuse my Counting Crows kick, I can't help it. I need that heartfelt, emotional, heavy-at-times, music that offers the, I don't want to say "emotional" but I suppose that's what it is, low that I feel yet the high I look forward to. It's been a tumultuous weekend and it's only Saturday afternoon. I don't understand my feelings, let alone others, but I just know that I am so grateful for my friends because they are what pull me through anything. I love them unconditionally.

Classes have started and though I'm already overwhelmed, I'm looking forward to this semester. It should be good no matter what happens. I'm excited.

Speaking of classes starting and overwhelming senses, I'm going to try to finish my homework this afternoon because we're ordering dinner then going to see "Across the Universe" tonight and tomorrow I believe we're going to see Juno and 27 Dresses. LOTS of movies to look forward to so of course I can't wait.


K

Today is my last full day home for Christmas break. Last year, I was a sad that I had to leave home again, I had gotten into a routine and you know how I am about my routines. Well this year, I'm pretty excited. Cait and I are leaving a day earlier so we can got to RIT to visit Tim and Sarah respectively. We'll get back to Geneseo by Sunday night for football and on Monday, we don't have classes so it'll be nice to have a full day to unpack.

My schedule is pretty hectic on Tuesdays and Thursdays this semester (3 straight classes from 8:30-12:35) but at least I'll be done early. On Wednesday I only have one class at 11:30 so that's fantastic. The only real problem I have is that Monday and Friday I have a class from 1:30-3:10, which kind of sucks because it's late on a Friday that I get out, but at least I don't have that class on Wednesday... I'll have a ton of time to do my work in that class.

And the subject that I won't fully talk about - I hope everything works out for the best, whatever that may be. I'm interested to see how things will play out.

I just packed up all my clothes (not an easy feat) and all my other junk so for the first time in 5 weeks my bedroom is clean lol. My mom will be happy about that. I just hope I can fit everything in the suitcases I have and that we can actually fit all of our crap in Cait's car lol. I want to drop everything off in Geneseo on Saturday and then only have my bag of stuff for Sarah's, etc. so that might work out for the best.

Tonight Mom and I are going to see 27 Dresses with Katherine Heigl and I'm so excited! Then we're going to Tina's for fish fry's... Since I haven't been to Tina's ALL break and it's one of my favorite places in the whole world. Perhaps if I'm not such a chicken I'd get my ears pierced tonight. If not, I'll have to wait until Spring Break because NO WAY am I getting them done in Geneseo. I think it would be fitting for me to get them done on Leap Day since I got my first holes on Leap Day 12 years ago (well, technically speaking, 3 years). We'll see... I feel like if I could get my ears pierced when I was 8, I can do it again when I'm 20. Ugh. I'm such a baby.

I should keep packing/cleaning/dedecorating from Christmas - my mom is paying me to take the tree down lol. Should be a good time.

Until later,
K

Oh gosh it's snowing so bad out! It took Rhonda and me forever to get home from Mary's just because Cole was bad. I mean, come on, has ANYONE heard of a PLOW? The roads were absolutely disgusting and I was driving little Diego who has NEVER seen snow like this. My mom said even she was slipping using her four wheel drive in the Explorer and my little Nissan Sentra pulled through. I love him! haha... I couldn't even make it up my road (a.k.a. the little windy road up to Mt. Everest) so I had to go all the way around the "block" which is like 4-5 miles haha. It was rough, but I made it.

This scares me though. Yesterday I was pleading for snow and now, we have a TON. All in like 3 or 4 hours. How fantastic. Now I can actually go skiing before I go back to Geneseo... Can anyone say Kissing Bridge? WOO!

I got Grey's Anatomy Season 3 on DVD in the mail today and I am thrilled. Can't wait to pick my faves and watch hardcore Grey's tonight because Lord knows I am not going out in this weather AGAIN.

I went and saw Enchanted again today which just solidifies my love for Patrick Dempsey. I think he is the most gorgeous man on the planet. I cannot wait until Made of Honor comes out in MAY (4 months and counting).



Until later,
Katie

This is going hard core old school but remember Garfield's good old fashioned family Christmas cartoon Christmas movie? It used to be one of my favorites when I was little and I'm sure if I saw it right now, I'd love it even more. The grandmother was always the best one and there is a beautiful scene were she discusses her life with Garfield. Now at this point I realize that I may have lost most if any of my readers, but this does mean a lot to me so bear with me. She talks about her life, and the comfort she gets from her cats.

For the past hour my cat has been curled in the crook of my elbow, purring. Every once in a while he'll look up into my face and I feel like I'm holding a baby I can read his expressions so well. He watches my pointer on the screen, happily following it when he's not looking around my room, completely content.

I realize how much I need this. No matter how mean my cat is, Rookie is above all a comfort to me. Sure he can get frightening at times, but its times like right now that make me realize how much I love him and how much he can make me calm and restful. Plus, it's always nice having a warm animal curled up with you.

Well, he stopped purring so I better pay him some more attention.

Until later,
Katie

It seems that I am perpetually cold. Whatever I do, I cannot get warm, and I blame it on the outrageous temperature that the dorms are at school. My body regulates itself to the near balmy atmosphere in my room and decides that if the temperature is below 75*, I will be shivering. It's absolutely horrible since at the moment I cannot feel my feet (even in bed, under a sheet, a wool blanket, some other blanket, and a comforter). I think I need to get the hair dryer going up in here.

Tomorrow (technically today) I'm going skiing for the first time this season. I'm so excited, I can't wait. Many will remember my fiasco last year when buying boots and remember that I only got to use them once last year so I'm ready to break them in.

Tonight we had a party for Grandpa's 80th birthday with a ton of the fam and it was a lot of fun. Given, I got to watch two football games so that wasn't bad either.

Right now the cat is rummaging through my ridiculous mess of a room and making outrageously loud noises with his paws and plastic bags.

I should try to sleep regardless...

Until later,
Katie

From a commercial (not where I like to do my best searching) I landed on this singer/songwriter who I have fallen in love with. The sad thing is: I've had his songs for upwards of 14 months, but have not listened to him. It's a travesty. Suspense aside, his name is Landon Pigg. Gross name, but amazing lyrics/voice. So far, my favorite is the commercial song ("Falling In Love At A Coffee Shop") but I'm working my way through all the songs. Lyrics, of course:

I think that possibly, maybe I'm falling for you.
Yes, there's a chance that I've fallen quite hard over you.
I've seen the paths that your eyes wander down,
I want to come too.
I never knew just what it was about this old coffee shop I love so much,
All of the while, I never knew,
All of the while, all of the while,
It was you.

Beautiful, right? GORGEOUS.

So I decided last night that I was going to get an early start on the morning. If you can see where this is going, you know me all too well. I set my alarm for 9:00, then when it actually when off at 9:00, I changed it to 10:00, and now I've been laying in bed on my computer for the past 35 minutes. It's almost 11:00 and I still have to shower and go to the library hopefully before 12:00. BUH. Not to mention, my room looks like a war zone and I was going to clean it with all my newfound time. Perhaps I'll watch the Office while I'm doing that. That way, I'll be pulled to stay in my room amongst the pigsty-ish junk.

I've already read three books since I've been home and only one truly was good. That's horrible. I'm starting to doubt my ability to choose good books to read. The only interesting one was "The Secret History" by Donna Tartt. I recommend it, but it took me forever to read because it was very in depth... Just like it took me a week to read the Bourne Identity.

Last night I caught up on Notes from the Underbelly. I know its not that funny of a show, but I really like it for some reason. Plus, its just nice to watch something you haven't seen... Since the writer's strike I've kind of been lost. Reruns just don't kick it for me. I feel the need to buy something on DVD and spend about 3-4 days straight watching something new. The problem is, I don't know what it should be and since I'm so frugal with my money, chances are it's never going to happen. So I'm stuck with Notes from the Underbelly. Perhaps I'll start watching a new show on nbc.com and save myself the torture of spending money.

Speaking of spending money, I NEED TO SHOP. I watched like 7 What Not To Wear's yesterday and I cannot wait to go shopping. If I don't go today for a little bit, I'm definitely going tomorrow. I want pants and shoes... And dresses, perhaps one skirt... and shirts, of course. OH GOD. I wish I also got that $5,000 that the contestants on WNTW get... Too bad. Looks like I'll be shopping on the sale rack for some time before I get that kind of money.

Well, I should shower. My morning's almost gone...

2 days until New Year's Eve,
3 day until the ICE BOWL :]

Until later,
Katie

This is an in-depth 2007 survey!!

BE HONEST

1-Did you kiss anyone?
Not in the way you think.

2-Did you date anyone?
No.

3-Are you going to have someone to kiss when the ball drops?
Unfortunately no.

4-Did you lose any friends?
Yes.

5-Did you gain any friends?
Yes of course.

6-Did you do something new?
I got my license.

7-Did anyone important to you die?
No.

8-Did you change?
For the better. I'm incredibly comfortable in my own skin.

9-Are you happy with the year over all?
Not entirely, but it was a learning and growing year, one that was necessary.

10-What's the best thing that happened to you ?
A newfound sense of independence and freedom.

11-Did you fall in or out of love?
Neither, but I've skimmed both surfaces enough over the past 12 months.

12-Are you happy the year is almost over?
Not particularly, but in a general sense I suppose so.

13-Are you going to change something about yourself next year?
Yes.

14-Do you think 2008 will be a better year then 2007?
Yes of course. If my life can't get better and better what do I really need to be here for?

16-How many things did you screw up in 2007?
Only a few things, but one sticks out as a problem.

17-Did you go to an amusement park?
No I've never been.

18-Did you go to a concert?
Yes, two. Jack's Mannequin and Augustana and Third Eye Blind.

19-Did you go to any parties?
Yes.

20-Did you go on a summer vacation?
Washington D.C., Alexandria, VA, Maryland, and also to Syracuse.

22-Did you get into a fight?
Yes, I had more than my fair share this year.

23-Did you leave the country?
No, not even to Canada.

24-Did you have a good birthday?
Yes, though I'm too old.

25-Did anyone in your family get married?
Yes.

26-Do you think you grew?
Yes of course, that is the major plus of this year.

27- Did you dye your hair?
I believe I died it once and highlighted it once.

28-Who do you think you were on the phone with the most?
My sister.

29-Did anyone sing to you?
Does rapping count?

30-Did you sing to anyone?
Uh, once again, does rapping count?

31-Did anyone tell you they loved you?
Yes.

32-Did you ever go to the hospital?
No, thank God.

33-What did you drink and eat the most?
Drink = DP. Eat = Chicken Caesar Salads?

34-Did you get a tattoo?
No.

35-Did you get a piercing?
Not this year, perhaps next?

36-Are you going to make a new years resolution?
Of course.

37. What do you look forward to next year?
Finally obtaining my goal of a big change in my life, of truly becoming myself, and learning to love that self above all else, enough not to want to change again.

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas,
Just like the ones I used to know.
Where the tree-tops glisten,
And children listen,
To hear sleigh bells in the snow.

I'm dreaming of a white Christmas,
With every Christmas card I write,
"May your days be merry and bright,
And may all your Christmases be white."

I am finally home. After the three most stressful weeks of my college career to date, I can finally heave a sigh of relief, sink down into the couch with a good book, and stare obnoxiously at the Christmas tree. It feels so good not to have to worry about anything. It's also a plus that I managed to pull off a B- in my English class (which is a feat, if you know my professor) and an A in my Native American History class. The other two grades I'm still waiting for but I know they're going to be fine. I'm relieved.

In other news, I'm completely in the Christmas spirit. Tonight we went to Grandpa's house and decorated the house and the tree, which always helps me become even MORE festive, so that was nice. Though, if I had my way (and an unlimited budget) I could do so much for his house at Christmas haha. I guess it's best that I can't do that... Who would want to undecorate such a mess?

My love life (if you can call it that) is more confusing as ever and I don't have the time nor the patience to even skim the surface of the mayhem. It's giving me a headache even now.

I hate to think about that ^ when I have so much to be thankful for. I really feel so fantastic to be at home and I cannot believe that I don't have to go back for another five weeks. So I'm going to let all the troubles slide, and I'm going to enjoy my time here.

Until later,
Katie

I'm twenty. I'm old.

Holiday and I come home,
I hope to see this boy I know.
I can't wait for us to be alone.
Flippin' through the radio,
We sing along to the indie show,
The songs they play mean more than I can say.

And the tape I made you,
Hope you think of me when it plays through.
I'm kinda sad now that it's done.
You think my time is for free,
In all the ways you say to me,
Sweet versions of, "Let's wait and see."

You're always a golden boy,
And I'm the girl that you enjoy.
My parents say isn't he a gifted son.
Time is always passing,
By but still I have to wonder why,
You can't come to tell me I'm the one.

Summer goes and we have grown.
We have our friends,
Live on our own.
Still I'm not the girl you want me to be.
Say gravity can bend the time,
Funny, I always liked your mind,
But this whole thing is crushing me.

But you're always a golden boy,
And this girl's heart that you destroy,
You smile at me and then you have your fun.
Time is always passing,
Still, I give you another try,
And hope that you will see that I'm the one.

You say you're scared to get too close,
Come let's see how it goes.
I see you now at the show,
The 7th in,
The 7th row.
Now you look at me,
And see what I've known for so long,
Sad that you could be so lovely and so wrong.

Came to say that I moved,
I see your face you don't approve.
Guess you could say that I'm already gone.

But you'll always be my golden boy,
And I'm the summer girl that you enjoy.
Some melodies are best left undone.

I feel the time pass away,
But in my songs you will always stay.
I don't need you to tell me I'm the one.
I don't need you to tell me I'm the one.

You'll never know that I was the one.

I am colorblind,
Coffee black and egg white.
Pull me out from inside,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am.
Taffy stuck, tongue tied,
Stuttered shook and uptight,
Pull me out from inside,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am... fine.
I am covered in skin,
No one gets to come in.
Pull me out from inside,
I am folded, and unfolded, and unfolding,
I am colorblind.
Coffee black and egg white,
Pull me out from inside,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am ready,
I am... fine.
I am... fine.
I am fine.

This weekend = FABULOUS...
Sabres Game = The final piece to the puzzle.
Seeing Sarah = Normal and comfortable.
Third Eye Blind = Life changing.
HOW AMAZING.

I just seem to have a problem with my mind. I had a great weekend, it was the best I've ever spent at college, but I thought it would be more. Once again, I have expectations that I shouldn't, apparently. I keep saying I have terrible luck but maybe it's so much more than that... How can everything be chalked up to luck? I need someone in my life that's stable and available. And obviously I can't find that because I still feel the same way I did. I wish people would take initiative.

Katie

Home in 2 days... Thank God.

I am so behind in everything. I can't seem to catch up on work let alone on sleep. Last night I decided I was going to skip my 8:30 class and work so I could get a ton of stuff done. It's now 10:38 and I only read 30 pages. I know I'm still ahead, but only by about 45 minutes haha. This sucks. I just can't seem to be productive and this is not the time... This weekend is going to be crazy and I pray to God I finish everything before Friday or at least on Friday. Meh. Plus, I'm sick.

I need to get back to work...

Until later,
Katie

I'M GOING TO A SABRES GAME! AHHHHH!!!! Yesterday morning Meg, Ashley, and I got up at 5:30 and were at the Union waiting at 6:00 for tickets that didn't go on sale until 12:00. We were the first people there :) And now I finally get to go to a Sabres games!!! I cannot wait. It's going to be so much fun. I don't even have to wait that long - it's on the 16th so that's in less than two weeks! Wooo! CANNOT WAIT.

I'm way too hyped up for 10:00 in the morning... it could possibly be the time change.

On Friday night Sarah came to visit... I'm glad she did because I missed her a lot. Leighann's twin was here too so along with Maura and Liz, we had three sets of twins, it was kind of cool. I can't wait until Saturday and Christmas shopping with Mom and Sarah :)

I am listening to Third Eye Blind NON-STOP in order to know every word of every line of every song so I can have the best 3EB experience possible. But I love it - they have fantastic lyrics.

November 1st NaNoWriMo started and I actually started writing at 12:05am. But the thing is I haven't added onto that since then. I need to get on that. I truly want to compete in this... but I'm going to have to write hardcore when I don't have my homework to do. Like now. Meh.

Until later,
Katie

Well I think it's safe to say that I overestimated my ability to cram before exams. After taking both my Sociology and English midterm and giving myself a B on both, I find out in one day that not only did I not get a B, in one case, I failed. NOT GOOD. So, it's time to kick my butt into gear and start working hard. Unfortunately, I really can't stand these two classes anymore. Well, only about five or six more weeks until I'm finished.

It makes me wonder how I can do so poorly on those midterms but in both my History classes, I have As! I'm incredibly proud of myself on that end of the spectrum. That's all that really matters, right? My major classes. We'll see.

I'm registering on the 7th and I'm quite nervous. I never seem to be able to get into the classes I want and it's kind of important that I do this semester. So next week I'll be flipping out until Wednesday when I finally get to register. Oh, man.

My personal life is WAY out of whack. Bahh. I think I need a break, and this weekend is the perfect time.

Tomorrow night is the Orchesis show and I'm pretty excited to see Cait, Juliette, and Amanda perform. I feel like their mother in a way lol. And Saturday night is another hockey game (I swear to God this is the best season! haha) and I'm so excited.

Sabres game tonight along with Grey's and reading about Emancipation. Always a fun time!

Until later,
Katie

THIRD EYE BLIND IN 16 DAYS!